The lyrics of this song convey a sense of intense and unhealthy obsession with an ex-partner. SZA expresses feelings of jealousy and betrayal at seeing their ex-partner with someone else. She even goes as far as to fantasize about committing violence against them. The lyrics suggest that she has a sense her feelings are destructive and irrational, but she’s unable to control them.
SZA starts by saying that she’s still a fan of her ex-partner, despite being “salty” or bitter towards him. She hates the idea of him being happy with someone else and would rather be the one causing the happiness. She mentions being “so mature” having a therapist to help her cope with the break up. Yet that doesn’t change her feelings of only wanting her ex and no one else having him.
SZA’s thoughts turn darker, as she begins fantasizing about committing violence against her ex and his new girl. Lyrics reveal that she’s in a state of emotional turmoil, she expresses feelings of love and hate towards her ex. She also mentions that she would rather be in jail than alone. This indicates that her desire for a relationship is so strong that she is willing to risk everything for it.
The chorus of the song reiterates the SZA’s intense feelings of love and obsession for her ex. She also has a willingness to do anything for him, even if it means committing violence. The lyrics “I might kill my ex, not the best idea” and “His new girlfriend’s next, how’d I get here?” shows her descent into a dangerous and criminal mindset.
The final verse of the song, SZA takes responsibility for her actions, admitting that she did it “for love” and “sober” meaning she was in a clear state of mind when she made the decision to take such drastic actions. She uses the phrase “I’ll kill your ex tonight” implying she is not only thinking about committing these acts, but planning them. The song ends with SZA saying that she would rather be in hell than alone. This indicates her desire for a relationship is more important to her than her own well-being.